Childhood Dreams.

I look at Youtube a lot. By a lot, I mean daily at different videos and subscriptions, like this and this. Mostly music related which is amusing. But it's funny how videos can have a powerful effect on people... both good and bad.


So I saw this video lecture given by a professor at Carnegie Mellon, named Randy Paush. You can view the video from above. It would seem like a mundane topic, like a motivational speaker kind of thing. But looking at his life, I could see that he made an impact in this world, not just by his success, also in his interactions with other people.
That gets me wondering, what have I done? What can I contribute? I don't feel like I am the type of guy who is good at one certain thing and can use that skill. What is my gift? I mean, sure... I can try to think of some of my childhood dreams:

1. Go to Disney
   
2. Learn piano
3. Shoot a basketball (well)
4. Create a successful video game
5. Get a pet dog.

There should be much more but I can't really think of more at the moment. But how could any of these help anyone else? At most, after watching the video, I felt guilty. Guilty that I have the chance to even be in college to study something that I chose. Guilty that I am letting my parents hopes down for not doing as well as I could. Guilty for losing the motivation to live my life. I just hope that I can find out what my God-given skills and talents are, and that I would actually use them.
Haha, this is why I don't like blogging. One thing leads to another and I can ramble... in text but not in speech for some odd reason. Now I think I should focus on homework and finish this later.

thanks for reading!